Ok so Christmas did the damage.

Bugs and stress and winter and... oh I don't know.

So at the moment I am on 5 or 6 menthol things a day.  Here's what needs to happen. I need to be able to quit without the mind games. The physical effects I can endure but not the head stuff. The week leading to Christmas was a nightmare in truth. I have not suffered from depression but I imagine that was what it is like. Awful.

Since starting again all I am hearing is how much better I sound on the air. So there we have it. Health or career?

I have not given up as it were. Will do it again at some point and next time I will know what to expect. 

Until then....

Jx